Saturday, March 29, 2008


"...and rather, it is I who owe you, as have been commanded by my Lord Jesus (indirectly), and because of the promise I made to you, a debt that can never be repaid, and that debt is love."

Friday, March 28, 2008

right, or very wrong

"Look at the big churches. The reason why they're so successful is most probably because they're doing things right... Or very wrong." - paraphrased, from a super senior. (super denotes relative age, not superiority.)

Love it. :D

Wednesday, March 26, 2008


We kept telling people that worship is not just be at Church meetings, worship is not just the songs we sing.

Why is it that they just seem to not get it?

But can they understand if song-singing-to-God session is called worship (and also praise actually), and is kept being pounded into their head?

And while we sing, we equate rising hands, lifting of voices as worship, as we ask the people to "let's worship the Lord."

Are they not allowed to be confused?

How can the message that worship is not just all these, that worship is the whole life of a Christian, the essence of who he is, get through to them, if what we say sounds different from what we do?

real love

Yeah, you don't have to go to Church meetings to be a Christian.

You can test the love that God has placed in your heart with people other than Christians.

Why, the reasons why we avoided our fellow Christians are because they're a bunch of hypocritical people, unlovable and hard to please and serve. Non-Christians are easier to live with.

But can an untested love, be love?

It is with the unlovable people that we are able to truly confirm that love, is love.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

divine sanctuary

I believe that the place we choose to come before God, especially in Church buildings, or even our room, or fellowship meeting place would be left with a divine scent, making it hallowed and holy.

Yes, we can debate all about them, about mysticism and all, but do you know that there's a holy sanctuary that is more obvious than those places, a temple so close to our heart that God has chosen to reside in?

Much more than halls, Church buildings and our home, we worship our Father in spirit, and in truth.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

meeting up

I'm a person who's not very interested in meeting new people, with the exception of persevering and faithful caretaker, and faithful Christian parents.

Weird. Heh.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

silent beauty

Does the running of a child back to his Father need to be caused by something drastic for it to be heartwarming?

Does a person need to have an insanely filthy history for his repentance to be moving and touching?

Does a person need to die the death of a martyr for his testimony to be authentic and powerful?

I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is not about the angelic joy we try to put on whenever someone goes to the front of the church meeting room and repeat the sinner's prayer.
I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is not even when that someone goes to the front of the church meeting room and repeat the sinner's prayer.

I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is when a person consciously decide that it's time to return to the embrace of his Father.
I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is when a person consciously decide that it's time to let Jesus into his house, and have His way. (not because the person has gotten annoyed at the knocking! :P)

Simple, quiet, and beautiful.

"Come in, Mr Jesus.
And would you be my Lord?"

Monday, March 10, 2008

do wrong

There's a huge difference between knowing that your doings are wrong, and knowing the cost of your wrongdoings.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

fitted in

And the misfit shall venture into a different world,
A world unlike any other,
Where the misfit would be a perfect match.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008


Today, it is as if God said these to me:

"Why are you acting so indignant towards her? Is it her fault that you're feeling so bad?"

"Aren't you the one who pushed for honesty, that we do not only share of our successes, but also our grief? Aren't you the one who fought so hard for openness in expression of inner feelings?"

"By doing her this injustice, does it not blatantly show how hypocritical you are?"

"So, judge yourself, whether you should continue such a loveless act towards her."

I'm sorry. I'm just trying to make things right for you again, to fix the problems and hurt that I've caused you. I never wished to spoil your final term.

Yeah, I was selfish, and it always is, right?


Is solemnness in saying grace before each meal, and the length of the thanksgiving prayer more important than the gratitude one feels towards God with every single bite taken?


Thank You for the re-pouring of Your love, refreshing my tired heart to its very core.

And for the reminder of why I choose this path of celibacy.

final step

Yeah, I do enjoy life.

To have good food once in a while.

To always be glad in the company of others. (well, actually, it's as often as it is possible.)

Yes, even to savour conversations with God while in this earthen vessel.

But as Christian, it is part of my delight in life to ask myself one question once in a while, so to not get caught up with all there is in this earthly life.

It does not matter if there's an important thing tomorrow, or an hour later, or even a minute later, but the answer to this question of utmost importance:

"Are you ready should the next step you take be your last on earth?"

And I would try my best to always let the natural answer be a yes.


I shall always remember of the vow made that I would never again seek happiness in my own smile, but from the smiles of others.