point taken

I guess there are just things you shall not share with other people, no matter how close you think they are to you.

Point taken.

thank you Lord!!!!!

Thank You Lord for letting me pass all my previous trimester's papers,
Thank You Lord for helping me get my computer running again whenever I can't start it,

And thank You Lord for reviving my dead phone!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's an unthinkable miracle!!!
No wonder I can't sleep and suddenly thought of turning on my phone.

For your grace is so great,
My heart will never be large enough,
To contain every pouring of your blessings,
Never ending blessings~

grace

and Your grace is like the height of heavens,
where it reaches I cannot see,
where it ends I do not know,
it pours like rain from the sky,
as deep as the oceans below.

sorry

What do you do when people complain about the decision you made? And it's not even entirely yours?

Do you try your best to be better, or just quit it since you don't really want to care for that particular matter?

I like people being honest, but let's not do it "it's your fault you better fix it" way.

I have feelings too ok?

And I'm sorry for my mistakes, leaving perhaps many dissatisfied people. I'm sorry. It's my fault for not being good enough anyway.

I'll try to be better, but I can't guarantee you anything.

Because I don't know what the future holds, but I'll try.

nap

God, I have faith in You,
but holding unto hope that I can't see,
is tiring.

I'm taking a nap aye?

sigh

I think, I'm gonna let go,
It doesn't seem like it'll work out anyway,
Yes, it doesn't seem like it'll go any further,
No, I'm not a quitter,
Cos I haven't even started yet,
But I'm letting go,
Yes, I'm letting go.

Sigh.

if I weep

If I weep,
Over the death of a loved one,
It only meant,
We won't be able to see each other in this lifetime,
Only memories will follow,
Missing deeply.

If I weep,
Over a troubling situation,
It only meant,
I'm waiting for God's comfort,
I'm waiting for His help,
Waiting quietly.

If I weep,
Over the salvation of my loved ones,
It only meant,
I'm pleading to God,
That perhaps He would see my tears,
And grant me my pleads.

If I weep,
Over the death of a stranger,
It only meant,
I'm regretting the times,
When I did nothing to know the person,
When I should've done so.

If I weep,
For no reason at all,
It only meant,
There's something wrong,
I need a voice that cares,
I need a shoulder to lean on.

I thank You

I thank You,
For the papers I passed,
Even tho I deserve to fail,
Even when I don't deserve Your grace.

I thank You,
For the rain withhold,
Even tho I deserve to be wet,
Even when I don't deserve Your grace.

I thank You,
For the friends that You gave me,
Even tho I deserve to be alone,
Even when I don't deserve Your grace.

I thank You,
For the financial provision,
Even tho I deserve none,
Even when I don't deserve Your grace.

I thank You,
For the people who I loved, and probably loved me,
Even tho I deserve no love,
Even when I don't deserve Your grace.

I thank You,
For the phone I have,
Even tho it's broken now,
I know You will provide.

I thank You,
For the hands I have,
Even when I'm sore from carrying things,
I'm glad when I'm home.

I thank You,
For the feet I have,
Even when I'm sore from walking,
I'm glad when I'm home.

I thank You,
For being You,
For all the time of faithfulness,
Even when I'm not.

I thank You,
For stepping out to die for me,
Claiming the right to be my God,
Even when I don't deserve to be with You.

I thank You Lord.

overlooked

It seems like even when you're tired and exhausted, once you missed or overlook something, there's probably no second chance.

And there's probably even a price to be paid.

at lost

I don't know how to what to write right now.

I don't know what to do also.

Dealing with annoyance, repetitively,
From the people I should care for.

Dealing with a heart,
That looks at sufferings and catastrophy apathetically.

Dealing with a life,
That is far from my liking.

Dealing with my feelings,
Which I don't truly understands.

Dealing with my mind,
That thinks strangely.

I need You God, evermore so.