debt

"...and rather, it is I who owe you, as have been commanded by my Lord Jesus (indirectly), and because of the promise I made to you, a debt that can never be repaid, and that debt is love."

right, or very wrong

"Look at the big churches. The reason why they're so successful is most probably because they're doing things right... Or very wrong." - paraphrased, from a super senior. (super denotes relative age, not superiority.)

Love it. :D

worship

We kept telling people that worship is not just be at Church meetings, worship is not just the songs we sing.

Why is it that they just seem to not get it?

But can they understand if song-singing-to-God session is called worship (and also praise actually), and is kept being pounded into their head?

And while we sing, we equate rising hands, lifting of voices as worship, as we ask the people to "let's worship the Lord."

Are they not allowed to be confused?

How can the message that worship is not just all these, that worship is the whole life of a Christian, the essence of who he is, get through to them, if what we say sounds different from what we do?

real love

Yeah, you don't have to go to Church meetings to be a Christian.

You can test the love that God has placed in your heart with people other than Christians.

Why, the reasons why we avoided our fellow Christians are because they're a bunch of hypocritical people, unlovable and hard to please and serve. Non-Christians are easier to live with.

But can an untested love, be love?

It is with the unlovable people that we are able to truly confirm that love, is love.

divine sanctuary

I believe that the place we choose to come before God, especially in Church buildings, or even our room, or fellowship meeting place would be left with a divine scent, making it hallowed and holy.

Yes, we can debate all about them, about mysticism and all, but do you know that there's a holy sanctuary that is more obvious than those places, a temple so close to our heart that God has chosen to reside in?


Much more than halls, Church buildings and our home, we worship our Father in spirit, and in truth.

meeting up

I'm a person who's not very interested in meeting new people, with the exception of persevering and faithful caretaker, and faithful Christian parents.

Weird. Heh.

silent beauty

Does the running of a child back to his Father need to be caused by something drastic for it to be heartwarming?

Does a person need to have an insanely filthy history for his repentance to be moving and touching?

Does a person need to die the death of a martyr for his testimony to be authentic and powerful?


I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is not about the angelic joy we try to put on whenever someone goes to the front of the church meeting room and repeat the sinner's prayer.
I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is not even when that someone goes to the front of the church meeting room and repeat the sinner's prayer.

I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is when a person consciously decide that it's time to return to the embrace of his Father.
I think that the most beautiful thing in Christianity is when a person consciously decide that it's time to let Jesus into his house, and have His way. (not because the person has gotten annoyed at the knocking! :P)

Simple, quiet, and beautiful.

"Come in, Mr Jesus.
And would you be my Lord?"

do wrong

There's a huge difference between knowing that your doings are wrong, and knowing the cost of your wrongdoings.

fitted in

And the misfit shall venture into a different world,
A world unlike any other,
Where the misfit would be a perfect match.

hypocrisy

Today, it is as if God said these to me:

"Why are you acting so indignant towards her? Is it her fault that you're feeling so bad?"

"Aren't you the one who pushed for honesty, that we do not only share of our successes, but also our grief? Aren't you the one who fought so hard for openness in expression of inner feelings?"

"By doing her this injustice, does it not blatantly show how hypocritical you are?"

"So, judge yourself, whether you should continue such a loveless act towards her."





I'm sorry. I'm just trying to make things right for you again, to fix the problems and hurt that I've caused you. I never wished to spoil your final term.

Yeah, I was selfish, and it always is, right?

grace

Is solemnness in saying grace before each meal, and the length of the thanksgiving prayer more important than the gratitude one feels towards God with every single bite taken?

refreshment

Thank You for the re-pouring of Your love, refreshing my tired heart to its very core.

And for the reminder of why I choose this path of celibacy.

final step

Yeah, I do enjoy life.

To have good food once in a while.

To always be glad in the company of others. (well, actually, it's as often as it is possible.)

Yes, even to savour conversations with God while in this earthen vessel.

But as Christian, it is part of my delight in life to ask myself one question once in a while, so to not get caught up with all there is in this earthly life.

It does not matter if there's an important thing tomorrow, or an hour later, or even a minute later, but the answer to this question of utmost importance:

"Are you ready should the next step you take be your last on earth?"








And I would try my best to always let the natural answer be a yes.

happiness

I shall always remember of the vow made that I would never again seek happiness in my own smile, but from the smiles of others.

useful regrets

I do not want to be one who laments and regrets while there are things that can still be done.

Regrets are only as useful as your resultant decision and action.

loveinaction

Something is going to happen in MMU Cyberjaya @ 10-13 March 2008............

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CAREFAIR!!!

It's a FAIR where you get to eat and buy stuff, and do charity!!!
But uh, sadly, we have no ferris wheel...
What's a fair without ferris wheel right???

But if you promise to come and support, we might be able to come up with something close, perhaps a simulation of it! :P

But currently, we're short of vendors for food and the flea market. :(
It is never our intention to deprive your good self from contributing to the lives of many others...

It'll be great if you can send me the contacts of any vendors, or someone who knows any vendors, or someone who knows someone who knows any vendors! It's almost like you've contributed A LOT already! No, I'm actually serious!

Plus, if you help us get more vendors, you'll be able to have more choice of friedchicken/friendnoodles/friedmeehoon/
sotongballs/keropoklekor/taufufa/plainrice
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accessories/books/flowers/cats/tarantulas/
handphones/simcards/clothes!!!

And on the first day, in the evening, there's this Care Night, where there'll be these you-can't-miss-em-all performances, consisting of bands, mime and drama!


IMAGINE THAT!

And you'd be able to do something about your years of suppressed desire to help those that are less fortunate than your good self! We have "Beautiful Gates - Foundation for disabled," "United Voice," "SPCA Selangor," "House of Joy (not House of Flying Daggers!)," "Retirement Home," and "CREST" to help you to start walking your destiny!!!

I assure you that they would be able to help you with your hidden dream of doing charity works!

Remember, a single act of kindness can go a long way~
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But the best of all these is that, you don't have to be here to support this good work! We accept donations, whether it is cash, or non-cash!

So, it is our hope that we can work together to contribute to the lives of others. 10 bucks is perhaps just the cost of one movie ticket for you, but for some, it is prolly just the right amount that they need to survive the day.

I can be contacted through my email address: yesuvia[at]gmail.com

God bless you! ;)

blessing

Those who know me would know how obsessed I am with God's blessing, especially with the physical and obvious ones.

Of course, I do try my best not to allow myself be confused that not seeing a blessing I expect is not an indication that God is not pleased with me, as if undesirable things are indication that I'm doing badly.

But I can't shake off this feeling that somehow, for the past few months that God seem to be asking me this question, and it's getting louder and louder:

"Should I cease to bless you, would you still follow after Me?"

non-practising

If anyone ever tells you that he's a non-practising Christian, and he knows exactly what that means, and he meant it, know this also that that person is not a Christian at all.

There's only two kind of Christians; a Christian, and a non-Christian.

account

Toils,
For the sake of none,
Blessed,
With praises to self.

Blessed,
Thanksgiving given to mute gods,
Praises given to lifeless lords.

Corruption,
Lived for none,
Utterly worthless living.

Gladness in failure,
Happiness in shame
One has yet to start living,
Until one is found by God.

Growing in solitude,
Prepared in silence,
Armoured in the quiet.

Fair maiden,
Beautiful splendour,
Unwittingly loved.

Compelled to His service,
Wonderfully coerced,
Magnificently wooed,
Into celibacy.
'You have made us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless till it rest in You.' - Augustine of Hippo.

Servant of none,
Servant of all, made,
Daily regretted,
Daily lived and rejoiced.

giving

You wanted me to share my life with others, but doesn't that means giving it away?

How can giving pieces of my life away make me whole..?